Stupid wine

Stupid wine. You're supposed to know better than this, Antigone. What did mum say? What did mum make absolutely certain you understood? "Ani, don't lose your head. You keep your head about you, you keep your eyes and your ears open, and you don't ask anything people won't like." And what did you do? You got drunk. Again. And asked your questions, again, in front of everyone, again, and you thought you were so clever, but you weren't, it was the drink, and now look at you.

.. oh no, that lecturer. Su-Ana? Oh gods, what did I say to her? I made fun of her, didn't I? Oh I know I did. I would have made fun of her traditions, like an ignorant, drunk idiot. What did I say? I asked her about patterns, didn't I? I hope no one noticed. It was rowdy in there, there was singing, wasn't there? Hopefully no one noticed.

I will have to apologise to her tomorrow. I hate apologising, I am no good at it at all, but I will have to. Hopefully my whiffing at that beardy will convince her I'm not as ignorant as I sounded.

... wait. No no, wait, magic rocks, something about a boat? And the guard captain, whatisname? Antigone, what in the hells have you signed yourself up for? I just want to see inside the elflands. These guys can't be ... no, they can't, they're not. Su-Ana is far too ... small. The dwarf? No. Maybe. Su-Ana? No? No. She's a mystic, not a revolutionary. No. I'm sure this is fine. You need to get out of Venec anyway, let the air clear after disagreeing with Lind. Go see the elflands, come home, write a paper, Lind will have forgotten, get on with your life.

But please, please Antigone, please stop drinking around other people. Mum and dad taught you better than this. You're just going to get into trouble.